Note: I’m writing this post just after I’ve got off my love-DD phase, so please ignore the self praise, I’m just analyzing myself to the best accuracy. :)
Another year goes by. Another New Year’s Eve spent at home. Wow, I LOVE being a loner. This is really just a random post, looking back at 2009. Analyzing myself and the changes within me. Maybe I could do one every new year. Anyway, bleh. I always used to be proud of being different from other teenagers. With the sudden growth of truculence, pimples and sideburns, I decided to analyze everything again. A year ago, I would brush off the term ‘teenagers’ saying, “They’re just confused rebellious pests lost in the middle, where life is a maze [yep, the Lenka girl read my thoughts before writing her song], and love is a misconception. I’m not like them in any way.” Hmm.
There have been many notable changes in me and around me (one depends on the other, doesn’t it), from the past one year. I’ll just note them down in no particular order.
Music: The genre of music I listen to has changed somewhat. The music I listen to has always depended on my mood. A year ago, a happy DD would rock his head gently to the lines, “Ob la di, ob la da, life goes on bra!” by the Beatles, but today, a happy DD would first love to bang his head to the lyrics, “Why, you wanna tell me how to live my life? Who, are you to tell me if it's black or white? Mama, can you hear me? Try to understand. Is innocence the difference between a boy and a man!!!?” [– Have a nice day.] A depressed or pissed off DD would hum “Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away”, but today, I’d rather shout out, “its 3 AM in the morning, put my key in the door and, bodies laying all over the floor and, I don’t remember how they got there, but I guess I must’ve killed them, killed them!” Aggressive? NO. In fact, I believe, it’s the frustration arising due to the fact that I’ve always been so much of a saint, who rarely gets angry[*somewhere in kopri a girl mouths ‘what the heck?!” *], who NEVER fights (with the fight with my neighbor when I was 8 being my first and last one) and NEVER abuses (some football-playing mates would disagree here, but it’s only because I hate it when you stand and smile!). In the aggressive sense, I’m so different from other teenagers, I’m a super patient kid, who totally believes in ‘love thy neighbor’ (*loud protests from my old neighbor*), who smiles at people who behave rudely with him.
Feigning: This is one thing in me that has decreased significantly. I’ve become more genuine. Don’t get me wrong, I was never FAKE; I just mean I can say things to people that I wouldn’t dream of before. No more am I the kid who just smiles at everyone. Recently, I’ve been able to ask twerps sitting down during the National Anthem to get their butts off the chair, ask the arrogant kid teasing someone else to shut up, ask the kids who teased another kid with a speech imparity to stop. (Stress on the word “ASK”) I can feel myself coming out of the cocoon; I’ve stopped being a pushover. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll still laugh off your insult, I’ll still fake laugh on your attempts at humor, but if you piss me off, I will surely ask you to shut up, or maybe come up with a witty comeback. Usually the latter.
Beliefs: Many of my past beliefs have changed. Apart from Santa Claus (I mean what the heck, man!?) the major change being that I’ve become an atheist. I believe that believing in something else is just to check on what you do. I have issues with believers, it’s just that I believe in my conscience, and that is satisfactory. There is no need to believe in something else if you’re sure about the goodness inbuilt in you, and if it is, your guilt is a sterner teacher than “God”. (I bet the word “believe” is sounding strange to you to you now: P)
Another thing is how I express my anger. As I said, I’ve always been a saint. Insult me how much ever you want to, in public, and I won’t ever insult you back, even when I was 14, I used to flash a smile of sympathy at those “Dhruv! Loserfool sucks!”-guys. That’s the way to tackle anything, in my opinion. That makes the twerp abusing look like a total fool. E.g.-:
“Dhruv, you suck!
”Aww, you’re sweet!”
I’ve never been able to ‘express my anger’ because, *drum roll*, I don’t get angry! [*a couple of friends and my parents look up, menacingly*] You can piss me off all you want; I’ll just use the Gandhi policy and ignore you, or come up with a witty reply! [Yeah, I have some good ones up my sleeve :D] In both the cases, you look like an idiot, not me! I’ve tried to picture myself as a guy who has totally lost control due to exceeding anger (Ha, not a pretty picture, people!) but I can NEVER see it happening, because, bleh, I NEVER lose control! F words, other abuse words, never when I’m really out of control. I ONLY abuse to give mates on the football field some slack, and that too rarely, and only when I know that those kids are fans of the ‘tough love’. Now, you might think after reading this that I’m one of those quiet ones who NEVER have an opinion. Wrong. I’m full of opinions, and I voice them when the time is right. The most significant example to back this is my awesome fight in school which began at the end of ninth grade and lasted for 8-9 months! Sheesh, feels so childish to describe it all, but I’ll make an attempt anyway. The enemy, so to speak, was this famous and strong bully, with whom no ones dared to mess with. He abused a friend of mine. The poor girl was victimized, oppressed by the guy because he had more ‘support’. Then the mutant stepped in. \m/ It was kind of fun. I proved him wrong online, [where most of the fight took place], and then he decided to meet me. Now forgive me for the lack of modesty, but if it were a battle of wits between us, I was the one with all the weapons. I felt like Sunny Deol. But then if it were a battle of arms, he was blessed with the "dhaai kilo ka haath". Hence, when we were to meet up in school, I was scared. But I was brilliant that day. Put on my bravest front, in front of his scary red eyes, and told him stuff like, "Hit or don't hit, I won't shut up. No profit. Your reputation would shoot down further and you probably would get suspended. I bet if I had a go at your mates you'd do the same." And within 2 minutes, after another piercing glare, he went away! [*somewhere in vasant vihar a guy shouts, "BUT I LEFT YOU AS I'M A GOOD GUY!"*] , and from that day I knew I was destined to be a tactical genius.
Anyway, suddenly there’s been a change in the way I express myself. I guess only a couple of friends and my parents (not mentioning ALL the people present on the occasion of my thread ceremony... {I hate you rahul dongre!}) have witnessed a real pissed off DD! But then it’s just that I present the genuine myself only in front of the people I really love. And I hate myself after that. It’s like, I am super kind to the whole world, and the anger, the depression, the frustration within my just comes out in front of these people. It probably helps me for the time being, but the guilt that follows kills me. I feel like a caged beast, and I’m free and unleashed only in front of people who really know me. The wrath, hence, just comes out on front of them, since I possess the knowledge of the fact that nothing I say could weaken any bond between us, and that I know those people would stick around forever, however I am. [Politics…check!]
Again, as I read through what I’ve written, I find that these changes are just minor. I’m still the same tactical genius next door [yes, I HAVE to praise myself from time to time] who isn’t afraid to voice his opinions, who is a saint and an atheist with a weird taste in music.
Trust has always been one of the most important things in my life, and it still is. Even as a kid, I used to hug my mom and cry if anyone accused me of being a lair, be it classmates or anyone else. It takes time for me to trust people, and when I do, I expect the feeling to be completely mutual. I bet this is sounding childish, but don’t get me wrong, I’m not talking about “secrets”, I’m pointing at doubt and mistrust. I can take almost anything, I’m as impermeable as concrete, but then if some close blighter suddenly accuses me of being a liar, or doubts my intentions with something, it becomes a totally deplorable state of affairs for me. Believe it or not, I’m 16 years old and I’ve got NO dark secrets, so to speak. Trust is the foundation for any relationship I build. It REALLY hurts when people you love the most begin to raise their eyebrows like you’re some freaking criminal. No use beating about the bush, I’m talking about my parents. What they do isn’t wrong, but then being the touchy guy that I am, I hate it. They’re just the parents with a weird teen kid, who, unlike other teenagers, regards trust as the base in his relationship with them. And hey, I’m not talking about mistrust in the “asking-questions” sense. In fact I like that my parents are still interested in knowing the people I hang out with. I totally respect that. When I make friends, it’s 60% Dhruv’s choice, and 40% mom’s choice. And I’ve got no problems with that. What sucks is the raised eyebrow I get to see after I’m off the phone with a female friend. See, I’ve had only four close female friends so far, and I’ve been suspected of going out with each of them. That too with such shitty reasons, which make me feel both of them would rock as anchors on Zoom TV!
See, my fourth friend (who I’m allegedly “emotionally involved” with) is new, so let’s take a look back at what’s happened EVERY SINGLE TIME, with the first three friends… It goes this way -:
1] The friend calls at home. *eyebrows raised*
2] We meet around a couple of times. *Eyebrows disappear*
3] The friend gets herself a boyfriend. *”Dhruv, she’s good, don’t break friendship ever.”
Now the fourth friend I’m talking about is still single, and she’s inclined on remaining single, which means my parents eyebrows are somewhere in the sky right now. [Lame attempt, don’t picture it. :P] On a serious note though, the narrow mindedness makes me sick! I can almost hear their voices ringing in my head…
“Dhruv, we trust you completely”
“She called AGAIN!?”
“Dhruv don’t do anything to break that trust”
“Wow, you’ve become very close, eh?!”
“We trust you, you can tell us everything.”
“Just so you know, this isn’t the age for emotional attachment!”
“You don’t hide anything from us. I know. Right...right..???”
“I trust you Dhruv!”
NO NO NO! You don’t! That goes for all parents. Its total CRAP parents tell us to keep us “”under control””. Probably works like a charm with other kids, but it hurts in my case, because all my friends know about my views on this, and it sucks that the two people I love the most think I’m a hypocrite. Credit to them, they trust me with everything else. Oh well, since I’m bored and jobless and it IS in the spirit of this post, here you go…
I’ve always believed that the whole girlfriend-boyfriend thing for kids of my age is just equal to two people fooling themselves. The “feeling” is totally make-believe. A façade. You might think I’m heartless, but I’m sorry, LOVE, as perceived by young teens, cannot exist in your hearts when you’re not even an adult. When you don’t even know where you’re going In life, and your raging hormones make most, if not all, of your decisions. Life is about priorities, and I strongly believe this age is about [yeah I know you’re expecting “education!”] having fun and not taking stuff seriously. You’ve got your life for complications. I believe it’s a massive misconception, and that 99% of these people would look back at this when they grow up, with either ridicule or regret. Regret about the fact that they spent the best years of their lives fooling themselves, lying to their parents, subjecting themselves to SO much of emotional trauma.
In my opinion, young teens find themselves a partner:-
1] To satisfy their raging hormones.
2] To induce fortitude in their messed up lives.
3] Because of insecurity.
4] Due to lack of confidence.
5] Peer pressure.
6] Insanity.
7] Because they misunderstand their friendship for something else, and in a flash of intelligence [catch the sarcasm], decide to risk everything for this.
Don’t get me wrong. I believe love is a beautiful thing. I love listening to Elvis talk about love. You can have all the shitty relationships you want, but eventually the woman that you TRULY believe, will stay by your side when you’re old and dying is the love of your life. I don’t believe in the ‘soul mates’ shit. It’s all about working it out. It’s exciting, and fascinating! Every time I hear Elvis asking the silent listener whether she is lonesome that night, I picture an imaginary female [laugh all you want guys, but she is hoot!” :P].
Well, as after every entry in my diary, my head has become clearer. Teenagers, I believe, aren’t just kids who totally misunderstand things around them, but kids who are themselves frightfully misunderstood! When the suffix TEEN is attached to your age, every person elder than you treats you like every step you take on your own account is just a proof of your innate idiocy. Life seems to slowly incarcerate us, our goals, and those wild old dreams are transformed into this veritable mess. That said, I can’t deny it is surely fascinating. I’ve discovered SO many new dimensions to myself from the past two years. The various mood swings, the intriguing phases I go through, the goals, the shattered dreams, the bluntness, everything is just brilliant! As Eminem says, right now, “Success is my only motherducking option! Failure’s not!” It’s like a seductive challenge, where each person is really against his own self, his thoughts, and his limitations. I love every bit of it and I’ve had enough of cribbing. I’m going to leave all the negativity behind with 2009. So all you doubters - have a nice day! Move on 2009!
Friday, January 1, 2010
Friday, October 23, 2009
Kailash-Mansarovar - The toughest time of my life.
My parents and I had planned a trip to the Mt Kailash and other areas in Tibet for the summer. It is said that Lord Shiva [Hindu mythology] resides in the Mt Kailash. Hence we had planned a ‘Kailash Parikrama’ (pilgrimage). We had also decided to go for the Mansarovar parikrama. The beauty of the Mansarovar is that it is the only glacial lake situated five kilometres above the sea level, and it has water which is sweet to taste, unlike other lakes and rivers of Ladakh and Tibet. It is said that the lake had been created by Lord Brahma, and it has many other religious stories. One which I can distinctly remember is that gods and goddesses use that lake for having their baths. It is regarded as a lake of sublime sensual pleasure. We had also planned to visit the Rakshas Tal, which is a lake, glorious and beautiful, but said to be unholy, because Ravana did penance in the vicinity. I’ve been to quite a few places around the world, but the one trip that has fascinated me the most, was this one, in 2007, our Kailash Mansarovar journey. Being an atheist, I thought this was quite daft, but now I know how wrong I was. What does an atheist, an amateur trekker gain from this trip? It’s not something you can wear, or something you can spend, but you can feel it. You can live with it. It makes for an unforgettable memory. You can cherish the experience. And lastly, you would like to go back there for more.
I’ll summarize my introduction with the following line that we were told before we left, “You can take a man out of Kailash-Mansarovar, but you cannot take Kailash-Mansarovar out of a man.”
Note: The following is a description of what surely was the most challenging period of my life. Two weeks that changed the person I was, and surely had an influence on the person I am today. It started on 29th May, 2007, and ended on 8th June, 2007. I know it was long back, but this was actually the first thing I’d planned to write about in my blog, before I’d even made one, but I was continuously putting it off, so now, as I start writing at 1:00 am, I am ready to put it out of my system. I’m using mum’s travelogue/journal as a guide, in which she used to note down the events of the day, every night.
29th May, 2007
We, my parents and I, started this journey somewhat inauspiciously, what with doubts in our minds, apprehensive about the risk factor involved. On the way to the airport, our car slipped on some oil on the road, and we spun 360 degrees first, and then we had another 180 degrees, but finally the driver steered us back on course. While this incident was taking place, Dad’s voice said “left…right..okay”, mom’s said, “Oww noo nooo aargh.. Shit!”, and I was totally mute. That made me feel all brave. How naïve of mum, I felt. We met the 20 other people that we were going with, exchanging hi’s and you-have-become-thin’s. We reached Nepalgunj airport. To be blunt, it was bullshit. Bus stops in Mumbai are more fashionable. In the group, now that I think about it, I found this energy, this weird enthusiasm, which was brilliant, we all told ourselved, “we’re bloody well going to reach the top of the mountain.”
30th May, 2007.
Woke up at 4:00 am, reached this mountain thing, from where we had to go to Hilsa. Nepalgunj to Hilsa was a brisk helicopter ride, and I was notably excited about the fact, since it would be my first time. We sat in, it wasn’t comfortable at all, but it was worth it. We kept gliding from right to left, and I felt distinctly pukish. The view was brilliant, the snow covered mountain were just seductive, as seen from the window! They seemed to hypnotise you, I’ve never been a man for the nature, but I’d be lying if I said that the sight did not take my breath away. The seductive mountains seemed to be telling us, “playing with me is a risk, but who are you kidding, after seeing this, you’re not going to be able to turn back.” We landed on the lower altitudes, where there was no snow, but the mountains had this barren look to it, which made me feel like some cool soldier, getting escorted from a helicopter, with a mountain to climb.. Man I’m weird!
From there it was a straight 3-4 kms from Hilsa to Tibet. It was awesome- the feeling that we were going to climb through one country to reach the other. The trek wasn’t a cakewalk by any stretch of imagination; it was continuously sleeps, which really sucks. There were no flat lands where the ankles could get some rest. I distinctly remember thinking of the line, ‘The fastest way to cross mountains is to go peak by peak, but for that you have to have long legs!’ Aditya, the guy 6 years older to me, the only other male kid, was with me, we were leading the charge, and it was fun, since this actually tested your physical fitness rather than your mental fitness. Don’t get me wrong, I am not boasting here, but though I was a chubby kid even then, I could always push myself physically, and both of us reached the top the first, with no one else in sight. We reached what we thought was the peak, the destination. We collapsed on the ground, and huffed and puffed for about five minutes. After replenishing the lost energy, I removed my shoes. Ah, the cool wind blowing against my hot and tired feet. It was such a relieving feeling. The steeper the mountains, the harder the climb, but better the view from the finishing line. How true!. I’d made it, and I had time over others, so I was proud. Thirty minutes later, we finally could see the rest of the group. They were still quite far, and we saw them sitting down, taking a break, apparently. After 2-3 minutes, they got up and reached where we were in another 5. They had broad smiles etched upon their faces, they were laughing and joking. I felt like an ass. My obsession to reach the top and do it fast meant I was only thinking about the destination. I was obsessed, and my obsession ended up spoiling the pleasure of the climb. It was evening now, and we still were waiting on that spot, for our luggage. It was getting cold and our luggage was making it’s way up the mountain courtesy some FAST Nepalese kids. We finally got it and we made our way to the hotel in Taklakot. This was the first sign of us being uncomfortable. Was a shit place, a pathetic excuse for a hotel. Our room had three beds, two bowls, and one thermos flask. The first bowl was for clean water to wash your face, and the second was for SPITTING after brushing your teeth. Sweet, eh?
In the men’s toilet, there were 4 people who had to shit, side by side, separated by a short wall, about two-three feet. So you had to bend well enough to ensure that the Chinese dude beside you isn’t ogling at your arse, but you could see the expression on the face of the two people left and right of you, so I had to keep my “ahh” expressions to a minimum. Uncomfortable shitting, that pisses DD off. Anyway, about the toilet, the heavy shit pellets went through the HOLE, but the other lighter stuff floated above with your urine. So you were basically shitting on 10 people’s urine and shit, which your arse an inch apart from it, and you had three other dudes doing the same thing, right beside you. Fun? Not quite. Had a headache that night (could you blame me?), a crocin relieved me off my pain, and I was off to hit the sack, after a dinner of some hot khichdi, and lots of cold for dessert.
31st May, 2007.
Fresh new day, clement weather, with the sun shining, the birds chirping, the scent of flowers, and a nice clean hot bath? NO! Had a blocked nose, inability to breathe, a strong urge of shitting, but not manifesting the desire due to knowledge of the lack of cleanliness of the toilet. None the less, we were extremely glad about the thought of getting out of that shithole. We were supposed to go to Mansarovar that day. We were lucky enough as we were going to be there during the full moon night, when they say, and I repeat, the beauty attracts Gods and Goddesses to come for a swim. We reached, and we were supposed to live in a tent-cum-hut thing. (You’d know what I’m on about if you’d see war movies.) It was beautiful. It was completely dark around, and the full moon shone brightly, illuminating everything around it. The lake, it seemed was blazing with some heavenly bright white light. The fortitude naturally came, when such beauty looks at you, you tend to forget the cold dry winds, and the headache. They say that even in the period of an hour, the lake changes colours. I could see it. It was like a Bollywood song, with the lake changing clothes within a second, and surely, the Mansarovar displays the best fashion show in the world! I’ve heard many people talk about the beauty of the Alps, the Pyramids, the Taj Mahal, and many other things, and at that point of time, it all seemed so menial, compared to the sight I was beholding. It was the first time, may I add, that I felt I finally knew what dear old Wordsworth was on about.
Sadly, I found out, that once you stop looking at the beautiful scene, the headache gets back at you, even stronger. I had a splitting headache, and I just wanted to cry. I was so depressed. There was no sufficient oxygen, we were informed about that, but we never knew it would make such a different, and with each breath I could somehow feel my head shouting, “I need more.. more!.” I was psychologically in a tough state. Didn’t know what to do. Even thinking about the oxygen levels made me feel breathless; I remember feeling like I’m going to pass out. People around me, our group, they were singing hymns about Shiva [who, they say, lives on the Mt. Kailash], and first I felt they were crazy, but then I knew that they had sensed that the ‘parikrama’ [pilgrimage], the challenge of climbing the mountain, was around 30 hours away. In the chill of the night, amidst the grandeur of the Mt. Kailash, and the splendour of the moonlit Mansarovar, and the pure beauty of the moon, and my splitting headache coupled with the depressing thoughts, I told myself, as I went off to sleep, “I’m going to complete that climb, whatever happens!” That said, I was scared. I feared what I would see ahead. This was supposed to be the easy part, I feared what was about to come. I kept telling myself that I was brave, and that courage is all about doing what you’re afraid to do. There’s no courage without fear. It’s about overcoming what you fear. With that thought, the ‘honey heavy dew of slumber’ was upon me, and it stuck my eyes shut.
1st June, 2007.
We were advised to rest for the whole day on bed, to get used to the Oxygen levels, and the acrimonious weather. Since this paragraph is comparatively deficient in words, I would like to share that acrimonious was one of the words I learnt from my partly torn pocket dictionary, after watching an episode of F.r.i.e.n.d.s where Joey is unable to use it effectively.
2nd June, 2007.
Next morning we travelled again to reach Tarchen. Tarchen was…weird, and it had a dishevelled look to it. It seemed like it desperately wanted to develop into a city, but it did not have the resources to do so. There were many incomplete construction sites. The toilets were so dirty; I CANNOT express myself in words. People had started shitting from the entrance itself, so never found out where you were ACTUALLY meant to shit. I just shat somewhere, like a beast. Again, incomplete unsatisfying shitting + less Oxygen + a splitting headache + cold = Pissed off DD. The rooms had no electricity, and it felt like we were living in a very cold cave. Having Dad and Mum with their arms around me felt really gratifying.
In the evening, we were given the news that there were storms around the Mt. Kailash, and the weather was too disdainful to risk continuing with the trek. A nasty sadistic idiot in our group seemed to be particularly happy, which enraged mum and me, and mum was really disturbed, so I reassured her saying that we would mostly go because weather reports count for nothing usually. She poured her heart out on me, saying “we’ll go, and I know it! It is meant to be!” Her faith told her that the weather would be good enough to take us to Deraphuk, the next destination on our journey.
3rd June, 2007.
Fantastic weather. Clement skies, mum was right. Five people out of the 20 dropped out, and went back to Taklakot, since the weather was still scary enough, with the lack of Oxygen. The rest of us, we carried on to Teraphuk.
“Dhruv, you want to go up till Teraphuk by a bike?”
“No, why?”
“After Teraphuk, till the rest of the mountain ahead, you have to walk, no bikes.”
“Hmm, alright.”
As I sat on my bike, and Dad paid the guy, as I bid farewell to the 3 guys (Dad, mom and Aditya’s dad) who were walking to till the tents in Deraphuk, I began to feel the resentment. Newton and Shakespeare would have twisted in their graves. The former because I didn’t give a shit about momentum and it’s help ahead, and the latter because he once said, “To climb great mountains requires slow pace at first.” I convinced myself, saying that if I would take it easy here, and use the bike, I would be able to do the rest of the trek very easily. In 1 and a half hours I reached our tent, not tired at all, except for the headache, and a somewhat sore butt. The 12 of us sat in the tent. Mum and Dad hadn’t reached ofcourse. All of us were in the tent, and we lay down, with our eyes closed. About an hour passed, and my thoughts were killing me. Everyone got up and they started chatting. There I was, fake-laughing with the other people, while my parents were climbing their way up through snow and other obstacles and discomforts. My heart tried to reach for them, and I wished, I could go outside and apologise, by shouting “I’m sorry for being such a selfish twat!” I had never felt that guilty in my life. Two more hours passed. I began to get extremely worried. I asked the other people how much time they would take, I went outside and asked some local children how much time tourists usually take to climb the mountain, and I found I was still good for another hour. That hour went by. I was almost shivering. I went back in the tent, and just dug my head in the pillow. I was so frustrated with myself. I felt like shouting out the last five letters of the place I was at, at that moment. Why did I have to take that bike! Why couldn’t I just walk with my parents. If I’d do that I’d respect myself. A total of 6 hours went by. I was going mad. I kept asking everyone why they were taking so much time. I became really restless. It was eating me up. Depressing thoughts entered my brain. I was a prisoner of my own actions. After what seemed like an eternity, my parents were back. Dad was back, with a grin on his face, which bore a cut lip, which was no surprise taking cognizance of the fact that he was fittest person in the group. He came back as if it were just an hour in the gym. I looked at Mum…She wasn’t in the best of health from the last two days, and she certainly isn’t the strongest woman on the planet, she had her cut lips, puffy eyes, messy hair, standing up in front of, we just looked at each other for around 15 seconds, I did not know what to do, and finally we have each other tight hugs, and she broke down. It was a HUGE achievement for my mother, my weak little mother, she had just proved to everyone in the room how strong she was. The thing that you believe in always happens, and mum’s belief in her completing the climb made it happen. Now I’m going to write here what mom wrote in her Travelogue on the night of 2nd June. I hadn’t read her travelogue till now, so it’s a surprise for me.
Following is what she wrote, and I quote:
“I felt sad for Dhruv. He is too young for all this. He was worried for us to, and he almost crying. My heart broke when I saw him holding back his tears. When we just came, we were happy to see each other. Then I became emotional again. And I bawled and let it all out, the fatigue, the anxiety, the worry for Dhruv.”
Again, that night it was bliss to sleep with the three of us giving each other tight hugs, so it was really cosy. Keeping people cosy by his hug is one thing DD can do very well! But later that night, it was hell. I woke up a zillion times, what with nightmares and the splitting headache. I had one dream about us already on the top of Mt. Kailash, and I had many other dreams which I cannot remember. I couldn’t get much sleep that night.
4th June, 2007.
Next morning, ALL the people from our group said that they were heading back to Taklakot, and that going ahead till Dolma La Pass wouldn’t be practical. All, that is, except my parents. My parents asked me what I wanted to do. I replied, though maybe not as stubbornly as I should have, “I’m coming with you.”
My parents said, “No, you’ll be safe and better with Aditya and the others, you’ll have fun, you’re too young for this, you aren’t even feeling well, you didn’t get sleep. Go get yourself some oxygen, you’ll feel better.” I did not say anything. I JUST AGREED.
Now, I quote what my mom wrote that night in her travelogue..
“Dhruv, who has been living in luxury, has to face all this. It was decided that from our group me and my husband would go ahead. No one else. I looked at Dhruv. He wasn’t keeping well. We told him to stay back. I felt sad and guilty. Maybe I had kept him behind because I knew he would be my weakness. I sat with him for some time minutes before the rest of our group descended down. He told me not to worry about him and to take care. I wanted to cry again.”
It wasn’t that I was her weakness; it was just that I was a loser.
5th, 6th June, 2007.
I won’t even try explaining what I went through for these three days. There my parents were, risking their lives in the cold snowy mountains, and there I was, pretending to have fun with the other people who gave up. The worst thing was, there was no one I could share my feelings with, the general talk from the group about the whole giving up issue was, ‘not worth it.’ Sour grapes, in my opinion. I lay down on the bed, playing cards with the others, and feeling like I was dying a slow death.
7th June, 2007.
7th June, my parents came back. They had a huge smile on their faces. Oh their faces, cut lips, it was almost like their faces were made of ice, and with one gust of wind they would blow away. I ran out of the hotel at Taklakot and gave my parents a hug. Mum went into my room, and we sat there. We said nothing; we just sat near each other. It was the first time after a passionate moment that mum did not cry. There is a picture that captures this very moment. Dad came in, trying again, but this time without good results, to make it look as if he was just back after an hour in the gym. I’ve always been proud of my parents, but till date I haven’t ever felt that proud, as I felt when I saw my parents back with their faces almost in tatters. It must have taken a lot from them, especially from mum, who, as I said, already wasn’t her fittest. Dad entered the room and we sat there, no one said anything, I popped in a “are you okay?”, and they replied in the affirmative. We sat there for around 20 minutes, saying nothing. That is one silence I will always cherish in my life, I could sit there for the whole day. My depressing thoughts vanished, and my feelings of being a loser were overshadowed by my feeling of pride for my parents.
8th, 9th June, 2007.
These were days meant for relaxation. We went to the Pashupathinath temple, where I spent my time avoiding, dodging, and wincing at the sight of fat pigeons. We reached Kathmandu, where it was nice and hot, we were sweating and it was really uncomfortable, and as we walked through the streets of Kathmandu, the only thing we wanted was a cool drink, a thing which brought smiles on the 20 faces from Mumbai, who had been through low temperatures they probably wouldn’t see in a lifetime. We were staying at a nice Hotel in Nepal for two days, and on 9th we were back home.
Kailash-Mansarovar – After-Effects.
It’s hard to fail, but it’s worse to never have tried. Even if I really wasn’t up to the task of completing the parikrama, I had the choice between two evils, going back like a loser, or making my parents send me back and take the mental pressure off me and shove it on them. I chose them both. Confucius (I loved reading his quotes) said, “be not ashamed of mistakes and this make them crimes.” I accept mine, though I still think my mistake is a crime. The worst thing that can be stuck in your memory, in my opinion is, ‘what if…’ I’ve been tormented by this for a long time, and I’ve had enough, I’d made up my mind about this, and I’ll now type it - I’m surely going to finish that ‘parikrama’ before I die. It’s an obsession. I hope its right after my 12th standard. I don’t care whether I complete it or not, but I don’t want to be a loser who never tried. This whole thing, it’s the one and only regret I have till now. Before I die, I want to be a person who could proudly say, ‘I have no regrets’. With a smile on my face, trembling fingers and sore eyes (which I expect you, reader, to have too) I end this note, repeating what I said at the start, “You can take a man out of Kailash-Mansarovar, but you cannot take Kailash-Mansarovar out of a man.”
PS- I have some beautiful pictures of this trip, I’ll add them as soon as I locate the exact position of my bloody pendrive. Cheers! :)
I’ll summarize my introduction with the following line that we were told before we left, “You can take a man out of Kailash-Mansarovar, but you cannot take Kailash-Mansarovar out of a man.”
Note: The following is a description of what surely was the most challenging period of my life. Two weeks that changed the person I was, and surely had an influence on the person I am today. It started on 29th May, 2007, and ended on 8th June, 2007. I know it was long back, but this was actually the first thing I’d planned to write about in my blog, before I’d even made one, but I was continuously putting it off, so now, as I start writing at 1:00 am, I am ready to put it out of my system. I’m using mum’s travelogue/journal as a guide, in which she used to note down the events of the day, every night.
29th May, 2007
We, my parents and I, started this journey somewhat inauspiciously, what with doubts in our minds, apprehensive about the risk factor involved. On the way to the airport, our car slipped on some oil on the road, and we spun 360 degrees first, and then we had another 180 degrees, but finally the driver steered us back on course. While this incident was taking place, Dad’s voice said “left…right..okay”, mom’s said, “Oww noo nooo aargh.. Shit!”, and I was totally mute. That made me feel all brave. How naïve of mum, I felt. We met the 20 other people that we were going with, exchanging hi’s and you-have-become-thin’s. We reached Nepalgunj airport. To be blunt, it was bullshit. Bus stops in Mumbai are more fashionable. In the group, now that I think about it, I found this energy, this weird enthusiasm, which was brilliant, we all told ourselved, “we’re bloody well going to reach the top of the mountain.”
30th May, 2007.
Woke up at 4:00 am, reached this mountain thing, from where we had to go to Hilsa. Nepalgunj to Hilsa was a brisk helicopter ride, and I was notably excited about the fact, since it would be my first time. We sat in, it wasn’t comfortable at all, but it was worth it. We kept gliding from right to left, and I felt distinctly pukish. The view was brilliant, the snow covered mountain were just seductive, as seen from the window! They seemed to hypnotise you, I’ve never been a man for the nature, but I’d be lying if I said that the sight did not take my breath away. The seductive mountains seemed to be telling us, “playing with me is a risk, but who are you kidding, after seeing this, you’re not going to be able to turn back.” We landed on the lower altitudes, where there was no snow, but the mountains had this barren look to it, which made me feel like some cool soldier, getting escorted from a helicopter, with a mountain to climb.. Man I’m weird!
From there it was a straight 3-4 kms from Hilsa to Tibet. It was awesome- the feeling that we were going to climb through one country to reach the other. The trek wasn’t a cakewalk by any stretch of imagination; it was continuously sleeps, which really sucks. There were no flat lands where the ankles could get some rest. I distinctly remember thinking of the line, ‘The fastest way to cross mountains is to go peak by peak, but for that you have to have long legs!’ Aditya, the guy 6 years older to me, the only other male kid, was with me, we were leading the charge, and it was fun, since this actually tested your physical fitness rather than your mental fitness. Don’t get me wrong, I am not boasting here, but though I was a chubby kid even then, I could always push myself physically, and both of us reached the top the first, with no one else in sight. We reached what we thought was the peak, the destination. We collapsed on the ground, and huffed and puffed for about five minutes. After replenishing the lost energy, I removed my shoes. Ah, the cool wind blowing against my hot and tired feet. It was such a relieving feeling. The steeper the mountains, the harder the climb, but better the view from the finishing line. How true!. I’d made it, and I had time over others, so I was proud. Thirty minutes later, we finally could see the rest of the group. They were still quite far, and we saw them sitting down, taking a break, apparently. After 2-3 minutes, they got up and reached where we were in another 5. They had broad smiles etched upon their faces, they were laughing and joking. I felt like an ass. My obsession to reach the top and do it fast meant I was only thinking about the destination. I was obsessed, and my obsession ended up spoiling the pleasure of the climb. It was evening now, and we still were waiting on that spot, for our luggage. It was getting cold and our luggage was making it’s way up the mountain courtesy some FAST Nepalese kids. We finally got it and we made our way to the hotel in Taklakot. This was the first sign of us being uncomfortable. Was a shit place, a pathetic excuse for a hotel. Our room had three beds, two bowls, and one thermos flask. The first bowl was for clean water to wash your face, and the second was for SPITTING after brushing your teeth. Sweet, eh?
In the men’s toilet, there were 4 people who had to shit, side by side, separated by a short wall, about two-three feet. So you had to bend well enough to ensure that the Chinese dude beside you isn’t ogling at your arse, but you could see the expression on the face of the two people left and right of you, so I had to keep my “ahh” expressions to a minimum. Uncomfortable shitting, that pisses DD off. Anyway, about the toilet, the heavy shit pellets went through the HOLE, but the other lighter stuff floated above with your urine. So you were basically shitting on 10 people’s urine and shit, which your arse an inch apart from it, and you had three other dudes doing the same thing, right beside you. Fun? Not quite. Had a headache that night (could you blame me?), a crocin relieved me off my pain, and I was off to hit the sack, after a dinner of some hot khichdi, and lots of cold for dessert.
31st May, 2007.
Fresh new day, clement weather, with the sun shining, the birds chirping, the scent of flowers, and a nice clean hot bath? NO! Had a blocked nose, inability to breathe, a strong urge of shitting, but not manifesting the desire due to knowledge of the lack of cleanliness of the toilet. None the less, we were extremely glad about the thought of getting out of that shithole. We were supposed to go to Mansarovar that day. We were lucky enough as we were going to be there during the full moon night, when they say, and I repeat, the beauty attracts Gods and Goddesses to come for a swim. We reached, and we were supposed to live in a tent-cum-hut thing. (You’d know what I’m on about if you’d see war movies.) It was beautiful. It was completely dark around, and the full moon shone brightly, illuminating everything around it. The lake, it seemed was blazing with some heavenly bright white light. The fortitude naturally came, when such beauty looks at you, you tend to forget the cold dry winds, and the headache. They say that even in the period of an hour, the lake changes colours. I could see it. It was like a Bollywood song, with the lake changing clothes within a second, and surely, the Mansarovar displays the best fashion show in the world! I’ve heard many people talk about the beauty of the Alps, the Pyramids, the Taj Mahal, and many other things, and at that point of time, it all seemed so menial, compared to the sight I was beholding. It was the first time, may I add, that I felt I finally knew what dear old Wordsworth was on about.
Sadly, I found out, that once you stop looking at the beautiful scene, the headache gets back at you, even stronger. I had a splitting headache, and I just wanted to cry. I was so depressed. There was no sufficient oxygen, we were informed about that, but we never knew it would make such a different, and with each breath I could somehow feel my head shouting, “I need more.. more!.” I was psychologically in a tough state. Didn’t know what to do. Even thinking about the oxygen levels made me feel breathless; I remember feeling like I’m going to pass out. People around me, our group, they were singing hymns about Shiva [who, they say, lives on the Mt. Kailash], and first I felt they were crazy, but then I knew that they had sensed that the ‘parikrama’ [pilgrimage], the challenge of climbing the mountain, was around 30 hours away. In the chill of the night, amidst the grandeur of the Mt. Kailash, and the splendour of the moonlit Mansarovar, and the pure beauty of the moon, and my splitting headache coupled with the depressing thoughts, I told myself, as I went off to sleep, “I’m going to complete that climb, whatever happens!” That said, I was scared. I feared what I would see ahead. This was supposed to be the easy part, I feared what was about to come. I kept telling myself that I was brave, and that courage is all about doing what you’re afraid to do. There’s no courage without fear. It’s about overcoming what you fear. With that thought, the ‘honey heavy dew of slumber’ was upon me, and it stuck my eyes shut.
1st June, 2007.
We were advised to rest for the whole day on bed, to get used to the Oxygen levels, and the acrimonious weather. Since this paragraph is comparatively deficient in words, I would like to share that acrimonious was one of the words I learnt from my partly torn pocket dictionary, after watching an episode of F.r.i.e.n.d.s where Joey is unable to use it effectively.
2nd June, 2007.
Next morning we travelled again to reach Tarchen. Tarchen was…weird, and it had a dishevelled look to it. It seemed like it desperately wanted to develop into a city, but it did not have the resources to do so. There were many incomplete construction sites. The toilets were so dirty; I CANNOT express myself in words. People had started shitting from the entrance itself, so never found out where you were ACTUALLY meant to shit. I just shat somewhere, like a beast. Again, incomplete unsatisfying shitting + less Oxygen + a splitting headache + cold = Pissed off DD. The rooms had no electricity, and it felt like we were living in a very cold cave. Having Dad and Mum with their arms around me felt really gratifying.
In the evening, we were given the news that there were storms around the Mt. Kailash, and the weather was too disdainful to risk continuing with the trek. A nasty sadistic idiot in our group seemed to be particularly happy, which enraged mum and me, and mum was really disturbed, so I reassured her saying that we would mostly go because weather reports count for nothing usually. She poured her heart out on me, saying “we’ll go, and I know it! It is meant to be!” Her faith told her that the weather would be good enough to take us to Deraphuk, the next destination on our journey.
3rd June, 2007.
Fantastic weather. Clement skies, mum was right. Five people out of the 20 dropped out, and went back to Taklakot, since the weather was still scary enough, with the lack of Oxygen. The rest of us, we carried on to Teraphuk.
“Dhruv, you want to go up till Teraphuk by a bike?”
“No, why?”
“After Teraphuk, till the rest of the mountain ahead, you have to walk, no bikes.”
“Hmm, alright.”
As I sat on my bike, and Dad paid the guy, as I bid farewell to the 3 guys (Dad, mom and Aditya’s dad) who were walking to till the tents in Deraphuk, I began to feel the resentment. Newton and Shakespeare would have twisted in their graves. The former because I didn’t give a shit about momentum and it’s help ahead, and the latter because he once said, “To climb great mountains requires slow pace at first.” I convinced myself, saying that if I would take it easy here, and use the bike, I would be able to do the rest of the trek very easily. In 1 and a half hours I reached our tent, not tired at all, except for the headache, and a somewhat sore butt. The 12 of us sat in the tent. Mum and Dad hadn’t reached ofcourse. All of us were in the tent, and we lay down, with our eyes closed. About an hour passed, and my thoughts were killing me. Everyone got up and they started chatting. There I was, fake-laughing with the other people, while my parents were climbing their way up through snow and other obstacles and discomforts. My heart tried to reach for them, and I wished, I could go outside and apologise, by shouting “I’m sorry for being such a selfish twat!” I had never felt that guilty in my life. Two more hours passed. I began to get extremely worried. I asked the other people how much time they would take, I went outside and asked some local children how much time tourists usually take to climb the mountain, and I found I was still good for another hour. That hour went by. I was almost shivering. I went back in the tent, and just dug my head in the pillow. I was so frustrated with myself. I felt like shouting out the last five letters of the place I was at, at that moment. Why did I have to take that bike! Why couldn’t I just walk with my parents. If I’d do that I’d respect myself. A total of 6 hours went by. I was going mad. I kept asking everyone why they were taking so much time. I became really restless. It was eating me up. Depressing thoughts entered my brain. I was a prisoner of my own actions. After what seemed like an eternity, my parents were back. Dad was back, with a grin on his face, which bore a cut lip, which was no surprise taking cognizance of the fact that he was fittest person in the group. He came back as if it were just an hour in the gym. I looked at Mum…She wasn’t in the best of health from the last two days, and she certainly isn’t the strongest woman on the planet, she had her cut lips, puffy eyes, messy hair, standing up in front of, we just looked at each other for around 15 seconds, I did not know what to do, and finally we have each other tight hugs, and she broke down. It was a HUGE achievement for my mother, my weak little mother, she had just proved to everyone in the room how strong she was. The thing that you believe in always happens, and mum’s belief in her completing the climb made it happen. Now I’m going to write here what mom wrote in her Travelogue on the night of 2nd June. I hadn’t read her travelogue till now, so it’s a surprise for me.
Following is what she wrote, and I quote:
“I felt sad for Dhruv. He is too young for all this. He was worried for us to, and he almost crying. My heart broke when I saw him holding back his tears. When we just came, we were happy to see each other. Then I became emotional again. And I bawled and let it all out, the fatigue, the anxiety, the worry for Dhruv.”
Again, that night it was bliss to sleep with the three of us giving each other tight hugs, so it was really cosy. Keeping people cosy by his hug is one thing DD can do very well! But later that night, it was hell. I woke up a zillion times, what with nightmares and the splitting headache. I had one dream about us already on the top of Mt. Kailash, and I had many other dreams which I cannot remember. I couldn’t get much sleep that night.
4th June, 2007.
Next morning, ALL the people from our group said that they were heading back to Taklakot, and that going ahead till Dolma La Pass wouldn’t be practical. All, that is, except my parents. My parents asked me what I wanted to do. I replied, though maybe not as stubbornly as I should have, “I’m coming with you.”
My parents said, “No, you’ll be safe and better with Aditya and the others, you’ll have fun, you’re too young for this, you aren’t even feeling well, you didn’t get sleep. Go get yourself some oxygen, you’ll feel better.” I did not say anything. I JUST AGREED.
Now, I quote what my mom wrote that night in her travelogue..
“Dhruv, who has been living in luxury, has to face all this. It was decided that from our group me and my husband would go ahead. No one else. I looked at Dhruv. He wasn’t keeping well. We told him to stay back. I felt sad and guilty. Maybe I had kept him behind because I knew he would be my weakness. I sat with him for some time minutes before the rest of our group descended down. He told me not to worry about him and to take care. I wanted to cry again.”
It wasn’t that I was her weakness; it was just that I was a loser.
5th, 6th June, 2007.
I won’t even try explaining what I went through for these three days. There my parents were, risking their lives in the cold snowy mountains, and there I was, pretending to have fun with the other people who gave up. The worst thing was, there was no one I could share my feelings with, the general talk from the group about the whole giving up issue was, ‘not worth it.’ Sour grapes, in my opinion. I lay down on the bed, playing cards with the others, and feeling like I was dying a slow death.
7th June, 2007.
7th June, my parents came back. They had a huge smile on their faces. Oh their faces, cut lips, it was almost like their faces were made of ice, and with one gust of wind they would blow away. I ran out of the hotel at Taklakot and gave my parents a hug. Mum went into my room, and we sat there. We said nothing; we just sat near each other. It was the first time after a passionate moment that mum did not cry. There is a picture that captures this very moment. Dad came in, trying again, but this time without good results, to make it look as if he was just back after an hour in the gym. I’ve always been proud of my parents, but till date I haven’t ever felt that proud, as I felt when I saw my parents back with their faces almost in tatters. It must have taken a lot from them, especially from mum, who, as I said, already wasn’t her fittest. Dad entered the room and we sat there, no one said anything, I popped in a “are you okay?”, and they replied in the affirmative. We sat there for around 20 minutes, saying nothing. That is one silence I will always cherish in my life, I could sit there for the whole day. My depressing thoughts vanished, and my feelings of being a loser were overshadowed by my feeling of pride for my parents.
8th, 9th June, 2007.
These were days meant for relaxation. We went to the Pashupathinath temple, where I spent my time avoiding, dodging, and wincing at the sight of fat pigeons. We reached Kathmandu, where it was nice and hot, we were sweating and it was really uncomfortable, and as we walked through the streets of Kathmandu, the only thing we wanted was a cool drink, a thing which brought smiles on the 20 faces from Mumbai, who had been through low temperatures they probably wouldn’t see in a lifetime. We were staying at a nice Hotel in Nepal for two days, and on 9th we were back home.
Kailash-Mansarovar – After-Effects.
It’s hard to fail, but it’s worse to never have tried. Even if I really wasn’t up to the task of completing the parikrama, I had the choice between two evils, going back like a loser, or making my parents send me back and take the mental pressure off me and shove it on them. I chose them both. Confucius (I loved reading his quotes) said, “be not ashamed of mistakes and this make them crimes.” I accept mine, though I still think my mistake is a crime. The worst thing that can be stuck in your memory, in my opinion is, ‘what if…’ I’ve been tormented by this for a long time, and I’ve had enough, I’d made up my mind about this, and I’ll now type it - I’m surely going to finish that ‘parikrama’ before I die. It’s an obsession. I hope its right after my 12th standard. I don’t care whether I complete it or not, but I don’t want to be a loser who never tried. This whole thing, it’s the one and only regret I have till now. Before I die, I want to be a person who could proudly say, ‘I have no regrets’. With a smile on my face, trembling fingers and sore eyes (which I expect you, reader, to have too) I end this note, repeating what I said at the start, “You can take a man out of Kailash-Mansarovar, but you cannot take Kailash-Mansarovar out of a man.”
PS- I have some beautiful pictures of this trip, I’ll add them as soon as I locate the exact position of my bloody pendrive. Cheers! :)
Saturday, August 22, 2009
THE DANCERS ARE BACK !
Yes, you guessed it, another random post. Tonight, though, I’m writing (pen and paper) rather than typing. It’s 11:45 at night, and I’m sitting alone in the living room, with my pen and paper. As I write this, I experiment, can I write like a doctor? Wow, I can. Stairway to Heaven is on, the music system in my living room rocks. Just got introduced to the song, I love the way it starts. I refrain from writing the way the music sounds, not knowing whether I should use “na na” or “ting ting”. Ooh, makes me wonder. Yeah, typing the lyrics makes much more sense. Maybe I should start making some sense now.
Going up and down in the lift has always fascinated me. When I first moved to Tarangan [DD’s residence] in my 5th standard, I was awestruck by the mechanical brilliance of the elevator of my building. It was the first time I’d seen ‘automatic doors’ and I was instantly captivated by it. Not being Newton, to think about reason-behind-falling-apples and what not, I just began using it. The two liftmen became my best buddies.
[LOL. The ow-ow-ow-ow-woah-woah part in the song is so funny! Led is brilliant!]
In all probability, I used the lift more than them. Pressing all fourteen buttons to piss the liftman off, to see him stop at each and every floor was bliss. Ah, those days.
[Wow. The guitar solo. Oh bloody hell. This is bloody brilliant. Wow, eyes closed. Now the song has gained pace, gets DD’s head to rock with the beat.]
Those days, I say with a huge melancholic sigh, have long gone. Today, when I get into the elevator, it’s one formal hello to the other passengers, a “Ram Ram” and a pat on the back to the liftman, and then looking at the thingy [for want of the scientific word] where the current floor through which the lift is travelling is displayed. Everyone does it, I’ve found it bizarre, but I do it too. Filling awkward silent seconds usually involves suddenly finding your shoes or your nails interesting. But in the lift, it’s always staring at the thingy, freakishly. The liftman, strangely, also does it, though the way he stares is different, he stares from the corner of the eye, as if he’s eyeing some beautiful chick.
[OYE IT’S SATURDAY!]
The lift is the only place where you get lots of free time, and you don’t feel guilty about wasting it, since you have nothing else to do. Since the 5th standard itself, whenever I’m alone in the lift, I look in the mirror, and I make my scariest expression. Then I laugh at the sight for the rest of the journey, which makes it a tedious task to straighten my expression as the thingy reads “0”[since I do my silly things usually while getting down from the 9th floor to the ground floor]. On other occasions, when my bully-like expressions become too monotonous, I punch the wooden walls around with the mutant knuckles. When I’m bored of that, and this might cause some amount of denigration, but I don’t care, I DANCE. I have two left feet and two left hands; hence you might argue that calling it “dance” is wrong. I do it to make myself laugh, and I succeed. As thingy reads “1”, I stop, making a straight face.
Ha, cannot believe I made you read all that. Now let’s back on topic REALLY. In my 8th standard, when I was going home after school, a plump kid got in, who was in the 5th standard then (I knew because I had played cricket with him), with his mother. What struck me most about this great man was the fact that he was the ONLY person I saw, who refused to go through the usual ophthalmic duty of staring at the thingy.
Innocence of youth? Not quite.
Kid with extraordinary thoughts and self confidence? Nail. Head. Bang.
The next time I saw the lad was at 8 pm. (when the liftman would be at home, bitching about the weird passengers of ‘his’ elevator.) The fact that he was fascinated by the journeys through this mysterious cuboid was palpable due to the cheeky, and somewhat weird, glint in his eye. For the first time, we spoke to each other. I go, “Kaisa hai?”, and he replies “sahi!!” I look in the mirror, and I madke a semi-weird expression. I turn back, apprehensively. His face is a question mark. I begin to laugh. He laughs too. He makes his own weird expression, looking in the mirror, next. I take the forcible cue, and I start laughing hysterically. Respect.
Next time we met, we exchanged mischievous smiles, and then looked away, so as to prevent the woman present from thinking that we had gone bonkers.
We met ALONE after a long time, and this is one of my crystal clear memories, but we hadn’t forgotten. He said, “main lift mein akela hota hoon tabhi bahot faltugiri karta hoon”. (When I’m alone in the lift, I mess around a lot.) I said I do the same. And in a flash of madness, we began to dance. We danced, like nuts, we looked in the mirror. We both laughed like we’d lost it. It was the first time, may I add, that the watchman sitting near the lift on the ground floor might have had an idea of the lunacy going on in the crazy cuboid, because we got out unable to control ourselves. This went on, EVERY SINGLE OCCASION I met him alone in the lift. In the tenth standard, we saw less of each other, or in other words, I saw less of the world, and if we did run into each other alone in the lift, it was usually when I was abosorbed in my book, being a firm believer of my own principle, “The reading during the last 30 minutes before the exam gets DD 30% of whatever he’s scored.” Even after tenth std, if we met alone, we had a little chat about this and that, but we never mentioned our old lunacy.
Yesterday, I met him again, alone. I looked him straight in the eye, he mirrored my action. We stared at each other for five whole seconds, and then we both began to dance. It was SO funny, I cannot believe I’m laughing even now, as I pen down the incident. He had some new moves, I had some myself, and we danced with frequent “Aha” shouts from the man. There were 4 left feet and 4 legs flapping about madly, in the elevator. We are back baby!!
One might argue here, that this is surely too stupid to be true, and that the DD with his trademark blank expression is not capable of such things. What do I say? Well, the lift brings out another side of DD [who has so many sides, it’s difficult to decipher what-agon he is, taking cognizance {yes, I love the word} of the fact that he cannot count more than decagon.] This is the side only the mirror of the lift gets to see, and of course, the dancer mate.
<< That is me, making one of the expressions I make in front of the mirror. I'm kind of looking like one of those middle eastern tough blokes. I cannot believe I'm pasting that pic in my blog, but it goes with the random spirit of this post, so bleh..
Thus, when you’re alone in the lift next time, make the most of it!
Anyway, I won’t reveal the name of the guy, because it’s our little secret!
The dancers are back, and they’re here to stay!!
Going up and down in the lift has always fascinated me. When I first moved to Tarangan [DD’s residence] in my 5th standard, I was awestruck by the mechanical brilliance of the elevator of my building. It was the first time I’d seen ‘automatic doors’ and I was instantly captivated by it. Not being Newton, to think about reason-behind-falling-apples and what not, I just began using it. The two liftmen became my best buddies.
[LOL. The ow-ow-ow-ow-woah-woah part in the song is so funny! Led is brilliant!]
In all probability, I used the lift more than them. Pressing all fourteen buttons to piss the liftman off, to see him stop at each and every floor was bliss. Ah, those days.
[Wow. The guitar solo. Oh bloody hell. This is bloody brilliant. Wow, eyes closed. Now the song has gained pace, gets DD’s head to rock with the beat.]
Those days, I say with a huge melancholic sigh, have long gone. Today, when I get into the elevator, it’s one formal hello to the other passengers, a “Ram Ram” and a pat on the back to the liftman, and then looking at the thingy [for want of the scientific word] where the current floor through which the lift is travelling is displayed. Everyone does it, I’ve found it bizarre, but I do it too. Filling awkward silent seconds usually involves suddenly finding your shoes or your nails interesting. But in the lift, it’s always staring at the thingy, freakishly. The liftman, strangely, also does it, though the way he stares is different, he stares from the corner of the eye, as if he’s eyeing some beautiful chick.
[OYE IT’S SATURDAY!]
The lift is the only place where you get lots of free time, and you don’t feel guilty about wasting it, since you have nothing else to do. Since the 5th standard itself, whenever I’m alone in the lift, I look in the mirror, and I make my scariest expression. Then I laugh at the sight for the rest of the journey, which makes it a tedious task to straighten my expression as the thingy reads “0”[since I do my silly things usually while getting down from the 9th floor to the ground floor]. On other occasions, when my bully-like expressions become too monotonous, I punch the wooden walls around with the mutant knuckles. When I’m bored of that, and this might cause some amount of denigration, but I don’t care, I DANCE. I have two left feet and two left hands; hence you might argue that calling it “dance” is wrong. I do it to make myself laugh, and I succeed. As thingy reads “1”, I stop, making a straight face.
Ha, cannot believe I made you read all that. Now let’s back on topic REALLY. In my 8th standard, when I was going home after school, a plump kid got in, who was in the 5th standard then (I knew because I had played cricket with him), with his mother. What struck me most about this great man was the fact that he was the ONLY person I saw, who refused to go through the usual ophthalmic duty of staring at the thingy.
Innocence of youth? Not quite.
Kid with extraordinary thoughts and self confidence? Nail. Head. Bang.
The next time I saw the lad was at 8 pm. (when the liftman would be at home, bitching about the weird passengers of ‘his’ elevator.) The fact that he was fascinated by the journeys through this mysterious cuboid was palpable due to the cheeky, and somewhat weird, glint in his eye. For the first time, we spoke to each other. I go, “Kaisa hai?”, and he replies “sahi!!” I look in the mirror, and I madke a semi-weird expression. I turn back, apprehensively. His face is a question mark. I begin to laugh. He laughs too. He makes his own weird expression, looking in the mirror, next. I take the forcible cue, and I start laughing hysterically. Respect.
Next time we met, we exchanged mischievous smiles, and then looked away, so as to prevent the woman present from thinking that we had gone bonkers.
We met ALONE after a long time, and this is one of my crystal clear memories, but we hadn’t forgotten. He said, “main lift mein akela hota hoon tabhi bahot faltugiri karta hoon”. (When I’m alone in the lift, I mess around a lot.) I said I do the same. And in a flash of madness, we began to dance. We danced, like nuts, we looked in the mirror. We both laughed like we’d lost it. It was the first time, may I add, that the watchman sitting near the lift on the ground floor might have had an idea of the lunacy going on in the crazy cuboid, because we got out unable to control ourselves. This went on, EVERY SINGLE OCCASION I met him alone in the lift. In the tenth standard, we saw less of each other, or in other words, I saw less of the world, and if we did run into each other alone in the lift, it was usually when I was abosorbed in my book, being a firm believer of my own principle, “The reading during the last 30 minutes before the exam gets DD 30% of whatever he’s scored.” Even after tenth std, if we met alone, we had a little chat about this and that, but we never mentioned our old lunacy.
Yesterday, I met him again, alone. I looked him straight in the eye, he mirrored my action. We stared at each other for five whole seconds, and then we both began to dance. It was SO funny, I cannot believe I’m laughing even now, as I pen down the incident. He had some new moves, I had some myself, and we danced with frequent “Aha” shouts from the man. There were 4 left feet and 4 legs flapping about madly, in the elevator. We are back baby!!
One might argue here, that this is surely too stupid to be true, and that the DD with his trademark blank expression is not capable of such things. What do I say? Well, the lift brings out another side of DD [who has so many sides, it’s difficult to decipher what-agon he is, taking cognizance {yes, I love the word} of the fact that he cannot count more than decagon.] This is the side only the mirror of the lift gets to see, and of course, the dancer mate.
<< That is me, making one of the expressions I make in front of the mirror. I'm kind of looking like one of those middle eastern tough blokes. I cannot believe I'm pasting that pic in my blog, but it goes with the random spirit of this post, so bleh..
Thus, when you’re alone in the lift next time, make the most of it!
Anyway, I won’t reveal the name of the guy, because it’s our little secret!
The dancers are back, and they’re here to stay!!
DD : MY FEARS.
NOTE : The worst fear will be added some time later. This is a compilation of my other fears.
That photo is me faking it, trying to appear like some brave kid. :P
Right, after a long break, and after deciding to bunk college tomorrow, or today taking cognizance of the fact it is already 3 AM, I decided to pen down something that’s been bothering me for quite a long time now. With my parents sleeping, and my dog finally asleep too, I am now free to write. This, do note, will be an extremely personal post, so people who do not know me personally might as well take a break.
Firstly, this is not some complex topic with double meaning, when I say fears; I mean, bluntly, things I am scared of. You will see my bulky frame, and you’d think, on seeing me, I’m this brave kid who fears nothing. NO I am not. I’m a bloody coward. I have plenty of materialistic fears. “Nothing in life is to be feared, just understood”. Shut up, will you!?
Be aware that I’m not at all proud of what I’m going to write about now. I want to face my fears, but I cannot, I never could till now. I’m just going to start naming them now. You might accuse me of terrible pusillanimity but I wouldn’t care less.
FEAR 1: Lord Vold**ort :
That guy is a bloody genius. He’s never failed to give me the butterflies. My fear for You-Know-Who started right from the first book. I am and always was used to reading novels at night, before I slept. This, mind you, was before I saw the character of the Dark Lord in the movies. It was when I was in the fifth grade, I believe, when we had just shifted and I was just getting used to living in a separate room. It was the part where Harry, Quirrel, and the Dark Lord meet together in front of the Mirror of Erised. I remember reading that part, and on reading “Let me speak to him, face to face” and “he lies, he lies!” I got so terrified I jumped up from my bed, shouted “aaarrghhh” out loud and barged into my parent’s bedroom. My Dad, on hearing me, was already up, and had the quizzical look upon his face. I slept in between them that night! Next day I completed that part, in broad daylight. Chamber of Secrets had no problem, nor did Prisoner of Azkaban. Goblet of Fire made me shiver. Bloody stinking jobless twerp Wormtail, “The Dark Lord shall rise again!” I went “Mumma!!!” I refrained from ejaculating another “aargh” as I was considerable older, grade 7, I believe, by then.
“Bone of the father, unknowingly given, will renew your son.” *shiver*
“Flesh of the servant, willingly given, will revive your master.” *brrr-brrr*
“Blood of the enemy, forcibly taken, you will, resurrect your foe.” * “aaaargh”*
So much for being in grade 7 and all that tosh. There it came again. Into my parent’s room. Spent the night there. Some time passed. The next night, I opened the manifestation of some of my worst fears, the chapter “The Death Eaters.” That wasn’t what made me clutch my blanket over my head though, it was the thing written on the previous page, “Whiter than a skull, with wide, livid scarlet eyes, and a nose that was as flat as a snake’s, with slits for nostrils…Lord Vold—ort had risen again.”
“Aaaaarghh”, I went. Jumped off my bed, went to my parent’s bedroom. A prepared Mum looked at me, “Give me the book, I’m throwing it away.” Went back into my room, lied down, went ahead, with part of the blanket over my head, and the bedsheets wrapped around me, sitting like you excrete faeces in an ancient Indian toilet. I looked like one of them hooded Death Eaters, myself.
“Voldem—t raised one of his long white fingers, and put it very close to Harry’s cheek.” BANG. Book slammed shut>>I-pod>>Hey Jude>>Slumber.
This went on for some time, till finally I completed the chapter, and the chapter “Priori Incantatem” with the ipod in my ears for the whole time.
Seeing the movie Goblet of Fire was scary too, with the character of Vol--mort coming right against the camera, I remember distinctly shifted my butt behind in the seat and closing my eyes and trying to shut my ears off too.
Book Five, had some scary parts. Book six was very mysterious. The past of the Dark Lord not only made me fear his power, but also respect his shrewdness.
Book seven was damn scary too, and this part almost made me cry.
“‘Harry Potter’, he said very softly. His voice might have been part of the spitting fire. ‘The boy who lived.’
Voldem—t had raised his wand. His head was still tilted to one side, like a curious child, wondering what would happen if he proceeded. Harry looked back into the red eyes, and wanted it to happen now, quickly, while he could still stand, before he lost control, before he betrayed fear.
He saw the mouth move, and the flash of green light, and everything was gone.”
HP killed him in some time, and one of my fears, though NOT MY WORST FEAR, was destroyed. That said, reading parts of He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named consternates me to this date. All hail, the Dark Lord.
FEAR 2 : MY OWN STRENGTH.
<< My mutant fist! Be scared, be very scared!
I know this sounds bigheaded, but what the heck. This is something I fear, and if any bullies are reading this, buzz off! As you’ve read and seen, I’m a big guy :P This has many advantages. You can intimidate people, you can push yourself through crowds, you can block people effortlessly while playing football, etc. It has its disadvantages too. You tend to break things. I’ve had so many such experiences. I had got into this fight [which was my only big fight] with my neighbour from my old colony, when I was around nine. He was a year younger, and I remember beating him up real bad. I was myself surprised to see the damage I’d caused. I reduced him to tears in no time. It’s something I regret to this day. I remember going back home and crying my eyes off, since the guy was my best friend, then. I decided then, and people don’t really know this, that I’m never going to indulge in a physical brawl of such intensity EVER again. I rarely ever lost it after that. After that, the only relation DD has with physical brawls is when he is on the sidelines, cheering the two fighters, or being the basic cause of the fight and slipping away in the end. That said, I’ve still had one or two bad incidents. Those friendly pushes on the back from me have sometimes led to people falling down, not causing much damage, but still indicating how much damage this mutant can cause. Especially Chinmay Deval, I have to hand it to the guy, he usually bore the brunt of my physical oppression! All of us still love to trouble him once in a while, but that’s nothing serious, he’s just an awesome punching bag. Anyway, all this eventuates in me laughing off those manly punches on the back, the arm etc.
<< That's Chinmay Deval!
The football field is another worry. When DD plays football, it’s 5% skill, 95% strength. I’m usually the guy running around like a headless chicken, and the guy loves to give the ball a nice sweet kick, and a guy who absolutely relishes physical challenges. Playing football in a really physical way gets that blood rushing through the veins real fast. Before any football game I play, I pick those strong people, and being a defender, I stick close to them, ready to give them a legal ‘shoulder push’, which somehow has NOTHING to do with the shoulder, EVER. Usually the sight of this raging bull running towards you at full speed sets people off and they get rid of the ball. Some people stay, and that sucks. I’ve had many incidents on the field. Momentum = Mass x Velocity. When this heavy kid runs at you with that speed, and you don’t move, it’s difficult for the kid to stop. I remember going to play with my cousin’s friends, [my cousin, by the way, has the similar intimidating physique like me, so we love scaring people together when we’re on one team], I was gutted seeing those people, all of whom were atleast 3 years elder to me. My first physical challenge, I crashed against one of the players, and made go down on all fours. My brother who was on my team started shouting “Dive!” but I knew that challenge was bang out of order. I couldn’t stop myself. A guy had the ball, and I wanted it.
That’s not the end of it, I’ve broken SO many things at home. I should’ve made a collection of the things I’ve broken. Vases, photo frames, glasses, and if you search my cupboard, you’ll find a carefully sellotaped laughing Buddha without an arm. Most of it was courtesy my football. This eventuates in excess anxiety. Now, when Mum asks me to open a bottle she can’t open, I start to fret. Those dirty tiny medicine bottles, I know if I excess to much pressure I’ll end up breaking it. The most annoying thing is using my pen drive. I cannot fix it into the port without at least 10 feeble attempts, followed by a frustrated push which fixes it in. Thus my strength, is another thing I deeply fear, though not HALF as much as my worst fear.
FEAR 3 : ACNOWLEDGING PEOPLE.
A usual day for DD contains waking up, getting ready, getting into the lift, saying “hari om”[I don’t know why, but I love saying it] to the liftman, walking out of the building after a brisk “ram ram” to the watchman, walking to school[unless the car is free], mouthing “hello’s” to all the people around me, including car-washers, dog-walkers, morning-walkers, drivers, other watchmen, other schoolmates, the guys from the jents parlour, Suresh the gift shop owner. Finally I reach school. Then DD’s routine is high five-ing all the guys, smiling at the girls, and saying the monotonous ‘good morning’ to the teachers. The break involves even more hello/high five/smile/nod-ing at the various people around, with the eyes spinning making sure no one misses the acknowledgement. Getting back home at 1:30 in the afternoon involves even more nodding-and-smiling, bye-see-you-tomorrow-ing to the mates, and waves to the acquaintances, and also a bit of Namaste-auntie-ing and Hello-uncle-ing, since I go past those women who go to their grocery shops etc, another batch of hari-om-ing and ram-ram-ing to the watchmen, who by the way, are the ones from the second shift. Going to play in the evening involves a LOT of hi-ing to my playmates, and also those invigorating HELLO!’s to the senior citizens sitting and chatting, none of whom I know personally. Taking my dog for a walk at night again involved “jevlat ka?[had your dinner?]”-ing at the watchman, and HATT!!-ing at the stray dogs.
See what I mean? It’s bloody vexatious, if that’s the word I want. Acknowledging people just impedes my normal way of existence. Very often, the only thing I desiderate during my public appearances is wearing a mask so that I don’t have to acknowledge all the people I meet. I was going to write ‘all the people I know’, but I refrained, because half of the people I acknowledge on the streets are perfect strangers, who I’ve pulled into my life by my smiles and other greetings. If DD meets any person’s eyes for more than one second, and the person doesn’t shift his glance elsewhere, something within DD forces him to display his 32, and cajoles DD into greeting the person on further meetings.
Thus, public appearances make me start fretting. This isn’t the only thing. Somehow I feel this guilt if I miss acknowledging one person. Have a look at me in the break, my eyes are constantly moving here and there, making sure I miss no smiles or nods or pats-on-the-backs, with the only assuagement coming from staring at my feet, ensuring that anyone who looks at me thinks I’m ‘unavailable for greetings’. If anyone acknowledges me with a smile or a wave, and I don’t reciprocate, it absolutely kills me. Thus, acknowledging people, my third fear, scares the crap out of me. This is my shortest post yet, but, as I say, what the heck.
Coming up, finally, my WORST fear.
That photo is me faking it, trying to appear like some brave kid. :PRight, after a long break, and after deciding to bunk college tomorrow, or today taking cognizance of the fact it is already 3 AM, I decided to pen down something that’s been bothering me for quite a long time now. With my parents sleeping, and my dog finally asleep too, I am now free to write. This, do note, will be an extremely personal post, so people who do not know me personally might as well take a break.
Firstly, this is not some complex topic with double meaning, when I say fears; I mean, bluntly, things I am scared of. You will see my bulky frame, and you’d think, on seeing me, I’m this brave kid who fears nothing. NO I am not. I’m a bloody coward. I have plenty of materialistic fears. “Nothing in life is to be feared, just understood”. Shut up, will you!?
Be aware that I’m not at all proud of what I’m going to write about now. I want to face my fears, but I cannot, I never could till now. I’m just going to start naming them now. You might accuse me of terrible pusillanimity but I wouldn’t care less.
FEAR 1: Lord Vold**ort :
That guy is a bloody genius. He’s never failed to give me the butterflies. My fear for You-Know-Who started right from the first book. I am and always was used to reading novels at night, before I slept. This, mind you, was before I saw the character of the Dark Lord in the movies. It was when I was in the fifth grade, I believe, when we had just shifted and I was just getting used to living in a separate room. It was the part where Harry, Quirrel, and the Dark Lord meet together in front of the Mirror of Erised. I remember reading that part, and on reading “Let me speak to him, face to face” and “he lies, he lies!” I got so terrified I jumped up from my bed, shouted “aaarrghhh” out loud and barged into my parent’s bedroom. My Dad, on hearing me, was already up, and had the quizzical look upon his face. I slept in between them that night! Next day I completed that part, in broad daylight. Chamber of Secrets had no problem, nor did Prisoner of Azkaban. Goblet of Fire made me shiver. Bloody stinking jobless twerp Wormtail, “The Dark Lord shall rise again!” I went “Mumma!!!” I refrained from ejaculating another “aargh” as I was considerable older, grade 7, I believe, by then.
“Bone of the father, unknowingly given, will renew your son.” *shiver*
“Flesh of the servant, willingly given, will revive your master.” *brrr-brrr*
“Blood of the enemy, forcibly taken, you will, resurrect your foe.” * “aaaargh”*
So much for being in grade 7 and all that tosh. There it came again. Into my parent’s room. Spent the night there. Some time passed. The next night, I opened the manifestation of some of my worst fears, the chapter “The Death Eaters.” That wasn’t what made me clutch my blanket over my head though, it was the thing written on the previous page, “Whiter than a skull, with wide, livid scarlet eyes, and a nose that was as flat as a snake’s, with slits for nostrils…Lord Vold—ort had risen again.”
“Aaaaarghh”, I went. Jumped off my bed, went to my parent’s bedroom. A prepared Mum looked at me, “Give me the book, I’m throwing it away.” Went back into my room, lied down, went ahead, with part of the blanket over my head, and the bedsheets wrapped around me, sitting like you excrete faeces in an ancient Indian toilet. I looked like one of them hooded Death Eaters, myself.
“Voldem—t raised one of his long white fingers, and put it very close to Harry’s cheek.” BANG. Book slammed shut>>I-pod>>Hey Jude>>Slumber.
This went on for some time, till finally I completed the chapter, and the chapter “Priori Incantatem” with the ipod in my ears for the whole time.
Seeing the movie Goblet of Fire was scary too, with the character of Vol--mort coming right against the camera, I remember distinctly shifted my butt behind in the seat and closing my eyes and trying to shut my ears off too.
Book Five, had some scary parts. Book six was very mysterious. The past of the Dark Lord not only made me fear his power, but also respect his shrewdness.
Book seven was damn scary too, and this part almost made me cry.
“‘Harry Potter’, he said very softly. His voice might have been part of the spitting fire. ‘The boy who lived.’
Voldem—t had raised his wand. His head was still tilted to one side, like a curious child, wondering what would happen if he proceeded. Harry looked back into the red eyes, and wanted it to happen now, quickly, while he could still stand, before he lost control, before he betrayed fear.
He saw the mouth move, and the flash of green light, and everything was gone.”
HP killed him in some time, and one of my fears, though NOT MY WORST FEAR, was destroyed. That said, reading parts of He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named consternates me to this date. All hail, the Dark Lord.
FEAR 2 : MY OWN STRENGTH.
<< My mutant fist! Be scared, be very scared!
I know this sounds bigheaded, but what the heck. This is something I fear, and if any bullies are reading this, buzz off! As you’ve read and seen, I’m a big guy :P This has many advantages. You can intimidate people, you can push yourself through crowds, you can block people effortlessly while playing football, etc. It has its disadvantages too. You tend to break things. I’ve had so many such experiences. I had got into this fight [which was my only big fight] with my neighbour from my old colony, when I was around nine. He was a year younger, and I remember beating him up real bad. I was myself surprised to see the damage I’d caused. I reduced him to tears in no time. It’s something I regret to this day. I remember going back home and crying my eyes off, since the guy was my best friend, then. I decided then, and people don’t really know this, that I’m never going to indulge in a physical brawl of such intensity EVER again. I rarely ever lost it after that. After that, the only relation DD has with physical brawls is when he is on the sidelines, cheering the two fighters, or being the basic cause of the fight and slipping away in the end. That said, I’ve still had one or two bad incidents. Those friendly pushes on the back from me have sometimes led to people falling down, not causing much damage, but still indicating how much damage this mutant can cause. Especially Chinmay Deval, I have to hand it to the guy, he usually bore the brunt of my physical oppression! All of us still love to trouble him once in a while, but that’s nothing serious, he’s just an awesome punching bag. Anyway, all this eventuates in me laughing off those manly punches on the back, the arm etc.
<< That's Chinmay Deval!
The football field is another worry. When DD plays football, it’s 5% skill, 95% strength. I’m usually the guy running around like a headless chicken, and the guy loves to give the ball a nice sweet kick, and a guy who absolutely relishes physical challenges. Playing football in a really physical way gets that blood rushing through the veins real fast. Before any football game I play, I pick those strong people, and being a defender, I stick close to them, ready to give them a legal ‘shoulder push’, which somehow has NOTHING to do with the shoulder, EVER. Usually the sight of this raging bull running towards you at full speed sets people off and they get rid of the ball. Some people stay, and that sucks. I’ve had many incidents on the field. Momentum = Mass x Velocity. When this heavy kid runs at you with that speed, and you don’t move, it’s difficult for the kid to stop. I remember going to play with my cousin’s friends, [my cousin, by the way, has the similar intimidating physique like me, so we love scaring people together when we’re on one team], I was gutted seeing those people, all of whom were atleast 3 years elder to me. My first physical challenge, I crashed against one of the players, and made go down on all fours. My brother who was on my team started shouting “Dive!” but I knew that challenge was bang out of order. I couldn’t stop myself. A guy had the ball, and I wanted it.
That’s not the end of it, I’ve broken SO many things at home. I should’ve made a collection of the things I’ve broken. Vases, photo frames, glasses, and if you search my cupboard, you’ll find a carefully sellotaped laughing Buddha without an arm. Most of it was courtesy my football. This eventuates in excess anxiety. Now, when Mum asks me to open a bottle she can’t open, I start to fret. Those dirty tiny medicine bottles, I know if I excess to much pressure I’ll end up breaking it. The most annoying thing is using my pen drive. I cannot fix it into the port without at least 10 feeble attempts, followed by a frustrated push which fixes it in. Thus my strength, is another thing I deeply fear, though not HALF as much as my worst fear.
FEAR 3 : ACNOWLEDGING PEOPLE.
A usual day for DD contains waking up, getting ready, getting into the lift, saying “hari om”[I don’t know why, but I love saying it] to the liftman, walking out of the building after a brisk “ram ram” to the watchman, walking to school[unless the car is free], mouthing “hello’s” to all the people around me, including car-washers, dog-walkers, morning-walkers, drivers, other watchmen, other schoolmates, the guys from the jents parlour, Suresh the gift shop owner. Finally I reach school. Then DD’s routine is high five-ing all the guys, smiling at the girls, and saying the monotonous ‘good morning’ to the teachers. The break involves even more hello/high five/smile/nod-ing at the various people around, with the eyes spinning making sure no one misses the acknowledgement. Getting back home at 1:30 in the afternoon involves even more nodding-and-smiling, bye-see-you-tomorrow-ing to the mates, and waves to the acquaintances, and also a bit of Namaste-auntie-ing and Hello-uncle-ing, since I go past those women who go to their grocery shops etc, another batch of hari-om-ing and ram-ram-ing to the watchmen, who by the way, are the ones from the second shift. Going to play in the evening involves a LOT of hi-ing to my playmates, and also those invigorating HELLO!’s to the senior citizens sitting and chatting, none of whom I know personally. Taking my dog for a walk at night again involved “jevlat ka?[had your dinner?]”-ing at the watchman, and HATT!!-ing at the stray dogs.
See what I mean? It’s bloody vexatious, if that’s the word I want. Acknowledging people just impedes my normal way of existence. Very often, the only thing I desiderate during my public appearances is wearing a mask so that I don’t have to acknowledge all the people I meet. I was going to write ‘all the people I know’, but I refrained, because half of the people I acknowledge on the streets are perfect strangers, who I’ve pulled into my life by my smiles and other greetings. If DD meets any person’s eyes for more than one second, and the person doesn’t shift his glance elsewhere, something within DD forces him to display his 32, and cajoles DD into greeting the person on further meetings.
Thus, public appearances make me start fretting. This isn’t the only thing. Somehow I feel this guilt if I miss acknowledging one person. Have a look at me in the break, my eyes are constantly moving here and there, making sure I miss no smiles or nods or pats-on-the-backs, with the only assuagement coming from staring at my feet, ensuring that anyone who looks at me thinks I’m ‘unavailable for greetings’. If anyone acknowledges me with a smile or a wave, and I don’t reciprocate, it absolutely kills me. Thus, acknowledging people, my third fear, scares the crap out of me. This is my shortest post yet, but, as I say, what the heck.
Coming up, finally, my WORST fear.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
DD's visit to the Royal Jents Parlour.
Okay, this is my first ‘random’ post as such. As Californication soothens those eardrums, I’m suddenly full of blogging energy. If I don’t write now, I’ll surely burst.
Okay, the following are carricatures drawn by yours truly, Dhruv Da Vinci, during the maths period. The pictures are EXACTLY what I feel during my Maths period. Before accusing me of having suicidal tendencies, try bearing one hour of quadritic equations. The picture have NOTHING to do with the post. It is VERY random.
Note: I’m all for the law against homosexuality to be annulled, I find it silly that there’s actually a LAW preventing something that’s natural.
Beware : This post makes NO SENSE whatsoever, so read this only if you’re REALLY jobless.
Today, at 11 am in the morning, I had this random thought of going to the barbers’ and experimenting with my hair. Went off in my green tee and shorts, reached the saloon, where the signboard, “ROYAL JENTS PARLOUR WITH A/C” gleamed into my eyes. With a smirk, I walked in. This parlour, by the way, isn’t one of the fancy ones, I’ll be blunt, I’m a cheap guy, and you won’t get any other place where you get a haircut for Rs 40 walking distance away from my place. Also, these barbers are all bhai types, they’re considerably smaller than me in size, but their lingo etc is really cool. Thus, the jents parlour is my natural choice. Walked in, not having a slight idea as to what adventures were in store for me in that cosy place. Smiled at one of the regular barbers, he gave me the usual “kay re… sutti ahe? College suru zala? ” [what ho, you’ve got holidays? College started?] this, by the way, is a question he’s asked me ATLEAST 9 times, so I replied in the affirmative. I saw that he was busy with a customer, and the other regular barber wasn’t available. So I was basically stuck with this noob who must be 19, judging by his innocent smile and his pink full sleeved shirt. What did I know, how much trouble little Mr. Pink was going to cause then.
I asked the noob whether he could cut my hair such that my long sidelocks stay, like Afzal Khan, and also ensuring I have enough hair on top to experiment. He gave me a “is-that-Latin” look, and I looked at the regular for help, who explained to the noob what I wanted, in them barber terms, which was Latin to me. The customer went out, and the regular told me he was off for Lunch. So it was me and the barber stuck in the saloon. I enquired whether he was new, and he replied in the affirmative. Since I couldn’t find anything else, I closed my eyes, not knowing what else to say to fill the silence. Suddenly, he goes in Marathi [and I translate], “Sooo, do you want it real shorrttt?” His tone scared the shit out of me, it was one of them seductive tones! I told him to keep it short. He went on cutting, but I noticed the ‘gentle strokes’ he made on the skin. I consciously pulled my shorts below my knees. As if that wasn’t enough, the guy started to lean on me. No, you don’t get it. I was sitting, he was LEANING on me. His WHOLE body in contact with the left side of my body. From my shoulder to my knee. My elbow got the worse contact [yuck] and I tucked my elbow in for the rest of the haircut.
As he went on cutting, three guys came in. One of them was being forced by the other two to shave off his beard and his moustache. Since I’m jobless, I’ll type out their interesting conversation. It was in Marathi, and I will type in Marathi, with translation done below. They were these cool punks, 40 year olds, the ‘been-there-done-that types.
“eh lavkar kaap re dadhi hyachi.”
“nahi re ! shanth rah!”
“eh chup re salya. Chikna kar re hyala”
“eh bhain---- halu nakos, kabootarasarkhi vadhli ahe!”
“aaaaarrrrghhhhhhhh”
“oink oink” (<
“badh thev tujhi ----, tujhya mulishi nahi bolat”
“mad------- mulivar jau nakos chu----“
“Bloody hell” (that was me whispering to myself)
“Sidelocks poorna kapuuuuu?” (my slimy barber)
“nahi nahi, hey barobar ahey” (> > me)
Translation [I’m soooo jobless]
“Oye, shave his beard, quick!”
“No man, shut up!”
“Shut up dude *undefined term*”
“your sister *undefined*, don’t move! Your beard is like a pigeon!”
“aaaarrrgghhhhh”
“oink oink”
“Switch off your phone! Let him shave it well!”
“shut your ---. I’m not talking to your girlfriend.”
“You mum *undefined* don’t pick on my girlfriend *undefined*”
“Bloody hell!”
“Should I shave off ALL your sidelocks?”
“No, no, this is just fine.”
Paid the forty rupees, and ran away without looking behind. I got everything in that one hour at the saloon, from homosexual advances to threats to life. After I wore my spectacles, by the way, I found out that the guy being forced to shave was actually the liftman in my bulding.
What a day. Bleh.
Okay, the following are carricatures drawn by yours truly, Dhruv Da Vinci, during the maths period. The pictures are EXACTLY what I feel during my Maths period. Before accusing me of having suicidal tendencies, try bearing one hour of quadritic equations. The picture have NOTHING to do with the post. It is VERY random.
Note: I’m all for the law against homosexuality to be annulled, I find it silly that there’s actually a LAW preventing something that’s natural.
Beware : This post makes NO SENSE whatsoever, so read this only if you’re REALLY jobless.
Today, at 11 am in the morning, I had this random thought of going to the barbers’ and experimenting with my hair. Went off in my green tee and shorts, reached the saloon, where the signboard, “ROYAL JENTS PARLOUR WITH A/C” gleamed into my eyes. With a smirk, I walked in. This parlour, by the way, isn’t one of the fancy ones, I’ll be blunt, I’m a cheap guy, and you won’t get any other place where you get a haircut for Rs 40 walking distance away from my place. Also, these barbers are all bhai types, they’re considerably smaller than me in size, but their lingo etc is really cool. Thus, the jents parlour is my natural choice. Walked in, not having a slight idea as to what adventures were in store for me in that cosy place. Smiled at one of the regular barbers, he gave me the usual “kay re… sutti ahe? College suru zala? ” [what ho, you’ve got holidays? College started?] this, by the way, is a question he’s asked me ATLEAST 9 times, so I replied in the affirmative. I saw that he was busy with a customer, and the other regular barber wasn’t available. So I was basically stuck with this noob who must be 19, judging by his innocent smile and his pink full sleeved shirt. What did I know, how much trouble little Mr. Pink was going to cause then.
I asked the noob whether he could cut my hair such that my long sidelocks stay, like Afzal Khan, and also ensuring I have enough hair on top to experiment. He gave me a “is-that-Latin” look, and I looked at the regular for help, who explained to the noob what I wanted, in them barber terms, which was Latin to me. The customer went out, and the regular told me he was off for Lunch. So it was me and the barber stuck in the saloon. I enquired whether he was new, and he replied in the affirmative. Since I couldn’t find anything else, I closed my eyes, not knowing what else to say to fill the silence. Suddenly, he goes in Marathi [and I translate], “Sooo, do you want it real shorrttt?” His tone scared the shit out of me, it was one of them seductive tones! I told him to keep it short. He went on cutting, but I noticed the ‘gentle strokes’ he made on the skin. I consciously pulled my shorts below my knees. As if that wasn’t enough, the guy started to lean on me. No, you don’t get it. I was sitting, he was LEANING on me. His WHOLE body in contact with the left side of my body. From my shoulder to my knee. My elbow got the worse contact [yuck] and I tucked my elbow in for the rest of the haircut.
As he went on cutting, three guys came in. One of them was being forced by the other two to shave off his beard and his moustache. Since I’m jobless, I’ll type out their interesting conversation. It was in Marathi, and I will type in Marathi, with translation done below. They were these cool punks, 40 year olds, the ‘been-there-done-that types.
“eh lavkar kaap re dadhi hyachi.”
“nahi re ! shanth rah!”
“eh chup re salya. Chikna kar re hyala”
“eh bhain---- halu nakos, kabootarasarkhi vadhli ahe!”
“aaaaarrrrghhhhhhhh”
“oink oink” (<
“badh thev tujhi ----, tujhya mulishi nahi bolat”
“mad------- mulivar jau nakos chu----“
“Bloody hell” (that was me whispering to myself)
“Sidelocks poorna kapuuuuu?” (my slimy barber)
“nahi nahi, hey barobar ahey” (> > me)
Translation [I’m soooo jobless]
“Oye, shave his beard, quick!”
“No man, shut up!”
“Shut up dude *undefined term*”
“your sister *undefined*, don’t move! Your beard is like a pigeon!”
“aaaarrrgghhhhh”
“oink oink”
“Switch off your phone! Let him shave it well!”
“shut your ---. I’m not talking to your girlfriend.”
“You mum *undefined* don’t pick on my girlfriend *undefined*”
“Bloody hell!”
“Should I shave off ALL your sidelocks?”
“No, no, this is just fine.”
Paid the forty rupees, and ran away without looking behind. I got everything in that one hour at the saloon, from homosexual advances to threats to life. After I wore my spectacles, by the way, I found out that the guy being forced to shave was actually the liftman in my bulding.
What a day. Bleh.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
The best day of my life - Anfield.
It is said that life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away. One such moment was 28th October, 2007. The two hours in ANFIELD have dilated the importance of my life. This may sound a bit far fetched but the best time I’ve ever had is in that very place, Anfield, watching Liverpool against Arsenal. I would rather have people take away years from my life than take away 28th October, 2007. Yes, Anfield, the fortress of LFC, the toughest place to play an away game, and the atmosphere created, which is second to none. I’ve heard people crying out about “living in the present”, and that “a five minute delay in dinner is more important than a moment of sorrow ten years ago”, but the fact that it is crap was manifested by the Hillsborough Memorial which stands alongside the Shankly Gates at Anfield, and is always decorated with flowers and other tributes to the 96 fans who lost their lives. At the centre of the memorial burns the eternal flame, signifying that they will never be forgotten. That’s the first sight you see, other than excited scousers everywhere. What happened during those two hours at Anfield is very hazy, but I will do my best to recollect it.
I had planned a trip to Liverpool and it was decided that my father and me would go to Anfield on the 28th day of October to witness the match against Arsenal. I remember waking up on 28th October, what a feeling it was! The only feeling in my mind was “how many minutes to go?” We went around Liverpool and visited the Liverpool Museum. I still remember how I felt about time going like a wounded tortoise. The only thing I was interested in on the day prior to getting into Anfield was looking at the Arsenal fans, giving them “the Red look”. [No gunner really bothered, but a girl of my age pointed at her crest!]
And then it came. The time I was going to enter Anfield. We got off the taxi, and woah! All of them Scousers around, with their red jerseys on. People selling flags, banners, some of them selling tickets too! The atmosphere was brilliant. People were ogling at their Liverpool magazines, arguing in loud voices about who should be played. This is where I wanted to be. I could stand there listening to their Carra-like scouse accent for many months together. But that wasn’t why I was there. We went ahead. Dad’s always claimed to “like” Liverpool but not being “addicted” or “obsessed” by it like me. If that atmosphere did not rouse a strong passion for Liverpool F.C, I’d say his heart was made of stone. I could see his face. His mouth was wide open, gaping at the ‘family’ in Red, with everyone talking to each other, shouting out songs once in a while. Finally we reached the Shankly gates, sparing a moment reading the names of the 96 who died.
We watched the scarves and flowers and bouquets kept. Never did the Shankly statement about football (“Some people say football is as important as life or death. I assure you it is more important than that.”) seem so near to a wrong statement, as at that moment, when I viewed the Everton, Chelsea, and scarves of many other teams kept. After mouthing a quick swear word at The Sun, I entered what was ANFIELD. The hair on my neck was as erect as thorns. The feeling was brilliant. The place where Bill Shankly once walked, placing my feet over where Stevie, Carra, and the lads walked. Dad and I were speechless. We gazed at the ‘He made the people happy’ statue of Shankly himself. Yes, this is Anfield, I felt. Didn’t even pinch myself, if this was a dream I would love to be sleeping forever. We then waited for the team bus. The real tension of the game was building, with the usual know-it-alls blabbering about how they had heard that Voronin had got on the bus and would be playing. Courtesy Dad’s height and my width, we managed to find quite a good place from which we would be able to see the Liverpool players when they would arrive. I was six feet away from the place from which they would enter. The wait for the team bus was evidence to the fact that we weren’t just 40,000 people who had come to see a football match. We were a family, who had come to cheer the warriors on. No one was shoving or pushing. People were happy wherever they were. Some humorous folks had some witty lines against the stewards on horses, which were pushing us back, away from the players. We all held our ground, and that was the first sign of the unity around. Then the bus came. There was excitement all around. I could see eyeballs popping out, bodies being raised on toes, and the short guys jumping up to have a glance. The bus stopped.
Man oh man! I was there, some feet away from people who I literally worshipped in every sense! The door of the coach opened, and down came the tactical genius, Rafa Benitez. We cheered like nuts, I hadn’t heard such a huge eruption ever [Of course, that was before I actually saw the match!] Rafa had the typical European acknowledgement expression, where you tuck your lips in, such that only your chin is seen. With a quick wave, the man walked off to the dressing room. Steven Gerrard, another huge eruption. Carragher came next, and his was the loudest cheer of them all, louder than Stevie! Then slowly all the lads left the coach, each to be greeted by many huge cheers. With a quick wave, most of them walked off, with excitement in their eyes, the inspired glint, which promised us they were going to give their best, and our loudness, which promised them we loved them whatever the outcome of the game. Babel had a particularly strange walk. He came in with his headphones on, his head jingling to what I presumed was Dutch rap! He did not wave, he raised his head for a stylish nod!
Dad and me decided not to wait for the away team coach, and we walked ahead to enter the stadium. After our tickets were thoroughly checked by the guards outside, we went ahead into the tunnel which led to heaven. As we walked on through the dark, we couldn’t stop ourselves. Dad said “Yeah man!” and I pumped my fist in the air and gave him a high five. We went ahead in the dark for a few steps, and then suddenly there was a blinding flash of light.
Wow, heaven. I’m a proud atheist but if there was anything near to the “blessed place you go to after you die”, this was it. I was absolutely ecstatic. The stadium was almost empty then, since people were waiting for a “special” welcome for Arsenal players! I couldn’t help myself. Shit, I had gone nuts. The following photo shows my feelings on entering the place.
I felt I would wake up from this dream anytime. I rotated my eyeballs around like a completely bamboozled kid. I remember the part when Harry Potter enters Diagon Alley, I felt like how he must have felt. I looked around. The Liverpool crest which was gleaming from the top of all the stands. The banners hung around. The seats in the dugout, blessed by the backsides of some of the greatest players and managers to ever exist. Many of the people have suggested there’s nothing like singing in the packed Anfield crowd, and that the Liverpool supporters are the best in the world. FACHT! Not delusional at all.
As the people increased in number, the fact began to manifest itself strongly. The crowd was all chirpy, and the DJ played We Will Rock You, by Queen, and we did the *clap-clap-bang* beat courtesy the chairs ahead of us. I thought then, this loudness is what results from 40,000 mad supporters! I was so wrong, then. It was nothing like when You’ll Never Walk Alone began playing. The famous track by the Scouse band, Gerry and The Pacemakers, which was adopted as the Liverpool anthem, to be sung before kick-off. Till the YNWA, the Arsenal fans had their say, but during the song they were as quite as mice, completely enthralled by what they were seeing and hearing. Perfect. As the music for the anthem started to play, everyone became silent, and stood up on their feet. I stood up and got my scarf out, spread out in front of my eyes. The following photo captures the moment.
And then we started to sing, I sang the anthem loudly, I already started to have a hoarse throat, but sang proudly, with wet eyes, the anthem had meant so much to me. Then we sang the last bit of the anthem, which was followed by a HUGE round of applause as the Red Army entered the field. The game begun and it was excellent, especially with the shouts and the cheers around. As Adebayour went to ground, we whistled madly. Every Gerrard pass was followed by his song. The noise when two bodies hit each other was excellent. There were many Oohs and Aahs when Riise cleared the ball away, with a huge THUD. Then came the free-kick.
It was near my end, Kuyt neatly touched the ball and Steven Gerrard banged it in. We were on our feet, jumping like nuts, and the scousers yelling ‘F—k ya, Gunners!”, “GET IN THERE!” and me yelling “YES YES COME ON!!” repeatedly. It was mad, I could have died due to the sudden noise then, but I couldn’t have cared less. Liverpool was shaking. Gerrard had scored. He came running to where I was sitting and leapt in front of the corner flag. I felt like jumping off and hugging him, but I refrained.
Then came the half time whistle.
This is the beautiful picture taken during HT.
Everyone was discussing about who should come on and who should go off. The match resumed, to more cheers. And then we sang ‘The Fields of Anfield Road.’ It was excellent, there was pin drop silence, after one word ended, to be followed by more eruptions. It was crystal clear. The “And could he play!” bit, was brilliant! As the match progressed, I felt ‘ It’s nice that we are one up, but I want to experience the moment when the opposition scores, as people had always talked about how the fans say behind the team during such moments ’ . Someone on the field was listening to what I was thinking, and sure enough, Arsenal scored. Pin drop silence in Anfield, it wasn’t a shock, but no one uttered a word. The period after the goal scored was my proudest as a Liverpool fan. All of us were yelling [even louder than the you’ll never walk alone], “COME ON YOU REDS!” It was followed by the “We love you Liverpool, we do!” when time was running off. The final whistle ended by a round of applause. Looking at the form of both the teams during that period, [When Arsenal was at the top of the league], we were all happy, if not ecstatic, with a point. We walked off, with our voices totally hoarse. I couldn’t talk properly. What an experience. I’ve often been with mates “leaving” one club to support another. Though I was thirteen then, such thought NEVER entered my head. And I’ll say what Steven Gerrard said after the Champion’s League victory, “How could I leave after a night like that?” I repeat, my love affair with Liverpool will never end..
PS - Pictures from the Liverpool museum to be updated later.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Dhruv's Laws of Fartology [Also called as Fartodynamics].
<< Girls fart more than guys!WARNING: Reader’s discretion advised.
Note : The following matter belongs to Dhruv Deshpande and he alone has rights to use it anywhere he wants. Grant of permission may be given by him alone, to publish the matter in Physics or Biology text books.
INTRODUCTION of the topic.
This is no harlequinade, and if you have a smile on your face on reading the title, please wipe it off. Thank you.
Firstly, farting or flatulence is the expulsion through the rectum of a mixture of gases that are byproducts of the digestion process of mammals and other animals.
“Disgusting”, “manner less”, indecorous” are some of the few adjectives used to describe people who fart. Excuse me, ‘people who fart?’ You fart, I fart, everyone farts. Yet we are embarrassed to speak about it. Look at you, reader, going red around the ears. However old or matured you are, you surely have had your moments when the only thing you desire is for the public to have no ears and noses, so you can fart to your heart’s content.
I have two facts for you, which have never failed to leave me flummoxed, but have to be accepted as reality.
1] Every single person farts. [ And every committed person too! Ok, lame joke. ]
2] Farting is said to be disgusting, and we must not let people know that we fart.
Surprising, isn’t it? Farting is not civil. It is wrong. You may talk about what you do with your partner in the late hours, but talking about farting is, according to people, disgusting.
A clichéd expression, “Disgusting people fart.” DD disagrees.
ABOUT THE EXPERT.
I, Dhruv Deshpande, am [probably] the first person to go deep into such a topic. I have, and I will continue to study this topic in detail. Who knows, you are possibly reading an article of a person who later may be referred to as “Dhruv Deshpande, Professor of Fartodynamics.
You may think, looking at my young age, that I will not be able to enlighten you matured folks about farts. Wrong. I am 90% sure that I have carried out each and every experiment (on a personal level) that can be carried out with farts. In my fifteen years as a human, I’ve tried things very few can even dream of. I have farted in public. I have farted in my classroom and ejaculated an “It was me!” I have farted in front of my family which led to being scolded as if I had committed a heinous crime. After controlling farts in malls, movie theatres, football fields, swimming pools, PUBLIC restrooms, restaurants and in my own house, Dhruv Deshpande stands up and says it’s enough. (You can remove the swimming pool part from the previous sentence.) I strongly believe that I am not alone who suffers from this weird biological process that everyone refuses to talk about. My friends, my family, my extended family, my maid, my dog and many others know that I have been very open about excreting, farting etc. It is this openness that has helped me unlock almost all the mysteries of Fartodynamics. I have to give credit to my experience, experiments and finally my grey mater. The quest for learning EVERYTHING about fartology is not a destination, but a journey, and I will narrate to you all that I have learnt on the way. Anomalies in my study will be corrected as soon as they are detected. I believed that there was a need for a deeper study of farts and I have come out with astounding results. I hope, my friends, that my Laws Of Fartology, will help you preclude the pandemonium that follows farting. The following, are the results of my intense study.
DHRUV’S LAWS OF FARTOLOGY:
Note: I will not give you information which you can find in books or on the internet. There are always two sides to a coin, the books will show you the safer side which stays away from facts so as not to cause any damage to the mind of the reader. I may not mention the exact gases being released, but I will give you information which is actually important, unlike the text books. I am being brutally honest with my laws, so I feel it is my responsibility to mention that this is not for the faint hearted.
1] Farting is a biological process, with bits of chemistry and physics involved.
2] Noise is inversely proportional to smell: More the noise of a fart, less is the smell released. The noiseless farts, which I refer to as the silent killers, release the most disgusting smell. [Exceptions mentioned in 10 e.]
3] The gas released during a fart comes through one and only one point inside your butt: This one took a particularly disgusting experiment, I must say!4] The above law also proves my theory, which was my first fartology theory; you CANNOT fart on a flat chair unless you tilt your backside to an angle of 45 degrees or more to the plane of the surface of the chair.
5] Shitting is indemnified by farting if and only if you try to shit to hard, without having a strong urge or necessity to shit. The fart released is not a silent killer, but one with a loud noise.
6] Farting is indemnified by shitting if and only if you already possess an urge, however strong, to shit, and you exert pressure on your buttocks for a long time, which results in the peristaltic movement to release faeces.
7] If you shit irregularly, you will fart irregularly: The experiment to prove this law was carried out on a personal basis.
8] If you fart a lot continuously, your butt will pain.
9] When you fart, it is not only your point of release of gas that plays a part, but the muscles around your buttocks also contract and expand while farting.
10] YOU CANNOT STOP A FART. Do not be disheartened, my friends, I will get you out of this mess. This is a huge problem regarding farts, but if you’ve farted as many times as I have, you tend to find loopholes in everything, DD is here to help. See, technically, farts are gases released through the rectum. That is the definition and we cannot change it. But yes, we can bend it. Gas is released from the rectum, that doesn’t mean it is released outside your body totally. You will fart, but there will be no smell released, nor will there be any acoustic evidence of the fact. I will first describe my experience with what I call “The Unfart”. The name is given because you do fart, but the effects of farts do not exist. When I try to control my farts in classrooms, etc, I am unable to do so. But if I press my butt in to cover the point of release, and also refuse to tilt 45 degrees, however strong the urge, there will be a slight rumbling near the stomach and also a vibration through around the buttocks. There will be NO noise, but a slight vibration which only you can feel. Remember, you can Unfart ONLY when you have an uncontrollable urge to fart.How to Unfart:-
a. Press your buttocks inside. [Tightening the thigh muscles helps during the above task.]
b. If sitting, press your buttocks strongly against the surface, ensuring that the point of release is totally covered.
c. If standing, walk slightly bending your back behind such that your butt moves forward, and move your knees to the opposite direction, which ensures that your buttocks will join to cover the point of release.
d. Control the urge, however strong, and do not open the point of release.
e. DO NOT cough or sneeze when you are preparing to Unfart. If you do so, the point of release will jerk open and the fart will be more noisy and even smelly, the only case when Law 2 of fartology will be proved wrong.
f. Stand/sit as still as a statue three seconds before the moment you feel you are about to Unfart. Remember, you cannot control the time when you can Unfart. If you decide “I’ll Unfart now!” then we might possibly have to remove ‘Un’ from the previous word!
g. No Unfart is complete without wiping off all the evidences of a fart. Thus, remember not to have the ‘Fart-look’ or the relieved countenance upon your face. Ensure total innocence. Keep your face absolutely straight. Exerting too much force upon your face may eventuate in uncovering of the point of release of gas. Thus, a straight face is of utmost importance.
If you are unable to Unfart, then the best thing you can do is not act weird, and you might still escape.
These, my dear students, were my Laws of Fartology. I hope that they help you in your life ahead to prevent farts, and to fart well if you cannot Unfart or if you don’t find the need to Unfart. Remember, friends, whatever you do, fart or Unfart, do enjoy it.
This is Dhruv D, Professor of Fartodynamics, signing off… :)
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